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I went from 128 to 123. The difference is barely noticeable, but I'm trying to be patient and not let that discourage me. I still have quite a bit before I reach 115 (possibly 110). The hardest thing then will be breaking the fast.

I was thinking of perhaps just doing what my mother suggested: eating soup for a week or two and then gradually re-adding apples and other fruit to my diet.

I told my mother how upset I am over the weight I gained in the last three months (I exaggerated a bit: I told her I gained more than I actually have). She actually showed some empathy and suggested I go on a liquid fast of soups. It's not exactly what I'm planning on doing, but at least I can stop pretending I've eaten when I actually haven't.

I've been gone for quite a while... A lot has happened, but I don't want to get into that right now. My main concern at the moment is going on a fast as of tomorrow and not consuming any solid foods before New Year's Eve.

If anyone is still reading this, let me know. It helps to know I'm not alone.

The thing is I binged the day(s) before I fasted. But I've noticed that whatever I ate while binging a day before I fasted seems to have left my body, seriously. I weigh 132lbs and weighed 136lbs the day before... Amazing. :) I hope I don't get used to these fast results, because I might be disappointed tomorrow if the scale only shows 1/2 pound less or no difference at all. And I'm very proud I didn't eat a thing yesterday. I wasn't hungry but I was tempted anyway.

I decided today I'll liquid "fast" and eat apples. And if I get dizzy I might have 1/2 glass of milk or something, if we have any.

Does anyone know how much cals a cocoa made with water has? (of course without me adding sugar)

Oh and yesterday I also had another green tea and a coffee. ;)

I'm on a liquid fast today. My best friend wasn't too happy when I told him about this, but I felt like I need to tell him. I didn't however tell him I want to lose 26lbs by the end of the year, and I won't tell him. I wear a lot of wide clothes too and since it's winter here I'll also wear a lot of shirts and he probably won't notice.

So far I'm doing pretty good, I don't feel any hunger yet. (But it's just 3:00pm.)
I had:
2 glasses of water
1 ginseng tea
1 black tea

Hope I won't binge later. I don't want to disappoint myself, it's barely the first day!
I'm not sure what I'll do tomorrow though. I don't think I could liquid fast another day without binging so I thought I'd try to stay under 400 or 300 cals... The problem with that is I usually find it easier to not eat at all than eat very little, so I don't know if I'll manage. Maybe I'll liquid fast anyway and see how I do?

Or how about liquid fasting and eating apples? How many cals does an apple have? Let's say, medium one.